So Sorry

My laptop hard drive is still broken, so until I have that back up I won’t be tumbling much. Soon hopefully; I miss putting up all these glorious pictures that I do.

2 months ago  /  0 notes

itsmellslikewatermelon asked: hhaha it happened to smell like watermelon at the time. =] do you live in holland, mi or just happen to come across dezwaan windmill?

Just came across the picture. I don’t reblog much, I prefer searching through the internet for the best pictures myself :) But no I happen to live in California haha

2 months ago  /  0 notes

MOTHERFUCKER

I have shit to do. I am not fucking complaining I’m trying to figure things out so I can do YOU a favor. But now you gon’ fucked up, get someone else to go for you. Fuck dude, my brother’s friends are so annoying.

3 months ago  /  0 notes

Why do I resent my best friend?

Living with your best friend is one thing, but living at his family’s house is another. And I love my best friend, we’ve been best friends since the 4th grade. But am I resenting him because he resents certain things about me? And he has no idea that I feel this way, or that I even know he feels that way about me. I know plenty of things that he doesn’t know, and would probably me rather not know that he has said or done these. Now I know really the only reason he resents me is because I don’t work. And I resent the fact that he resents me for that. Because he thinks that I don’t even try to look for work. I try. And he thinks that when I say I am going job searching with our other friend, we don’t go at all. And what would he know? He’s not with us. Sure we don’t take it seriously all the time, but that’s mostly because my other friend used to prefer going job searching by himself. Now he is seeing how much more I need it, and how hard it truly is to find a job when you are limited to the places you can go because you don’t have a car or a cell phone or a consistent flow of income to even afford the buses every day. And you know that makes me glad that at least one of my friends is really trying to help me. But now back to my best friend. He gets what I’ve been through. And he knows more about me than anyone else. But what he doesn’t know is that he is more clueless about what I know, and I am the more informed one. And the reason this is so is because I usually keep quiet about a lot of things people tell me. Now I don’t wish my hardships upon him, but I definitely do wish he could truly understand what I’ve been through. As much as I told him, that’s all I can do because he has always had it easy. He grew up a single child, living with his grandparents; so he grew up very spoiled. He was always encouraged to do his best, not cut down. He was allowed a social life, and his private life was for him to enjoy. He never had parents who were overbearing, overprotective, and very opinionated- to the point where I quote my dad “Listen, I’m the dad. I am always right. Even when I’m dead wrong, I’m right.” Fucking bullshit. And I’m sure part of the reason I resent my best friend is because he is very hard-headed, and very opinionated, and as he’s grown up it’s gotten better, but he still has his ways of this. Now he grew up a single child, never really liked sharing. And he is still this way. Which really pisses me off. I have always shared with him. For fuck’s sake when we were younger I let him borrow my PS2 for days along with my GH controller and game (which he left on for days- very bad for the system). That’s just a specific example. I have never hesitated to share anything with him, and it really bothers me that he is that way, I don’t give a fuck if you’ve never liked sharing, it’s about being a control freak not actually sharing. He has always just been given everything, so for him to have life so easy, I’m sure he looks down on me in ways. Which is annoying. Because he himself has so many flaws that he doesn’t realize, and it’s starting to bug a lot more people than just me. But whatever, I love him and he loves me. We are basically brothers, after all. So I’m done. There’s my rant. I’m sure I left some stuff out, but it’s my first blog so I’m sure this is a very unorganized list of thoughts. There’s a little insight into my mind for ya.

3 months ago  /  0 notes